Na-miss ko ung blogdrive ko. Mas inuupdate ko kasi Multiply ko eh
(Http://james2537.multiply.com)

eto, isa sa mga nasulat ko ngayon lang.
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Habang nag-lilinis ng kwarto, nakita ko ung aking "High School Notebook of Graduation Greetings". Ung notebook na malaki na pinagsusulatan ng iba kong kaibigan ng kanilang mensahe para sa akin noong graduation.

Rumagasa muli ang alaala ng mas simpleng panahon na ang inalala lang natin ay ang test sa math, ang report sa iba't ibang subject, at nung fourth year, report kay ma'am labay. Nag-chichill out sa Rob o di kaya sa Mcdo UN. Tapos kung minsan, sa official sabayang pagbigkas practice area ng masci, ang Paco park.
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Nakikita ko ang iba't ibang sulat ng aking mga kaibigan. Ung iba, parang nobela, ung iba conscious sa red bolpen na ginamit nila (I'm looking at you, Dabs), ung iba shiny green and yellow. Yung iba, simpleng black lang. Binuklat ko siya't nakita, hindi naman karamihan ang aking ipinasulat doon. Ngunit hindi ko siya binasa ngayon.

Wag muna... naisip ko. Ibinalik ko na lamang sa aking "shoebox" kung saan lahat ng mga, para sa akin, importanteng mga bagay na may isang espesyal na alaala ay naka tago.
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Isang munting alaala ng mas simpleng panahon. Isang munting alaala... ng noon...

Remember this? This was the header for the Pistons vs Lakers 2004 NBA FINALS

The young pistons team hungry to prove that the eastern conference should be taken seriously up against the Lakers, Kobe, Shaq, Malone, Payton and their supporting cast. Destined to win the championship with at least 4 hall of famers in the team.

Sounds a lot like love no?
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A few weeks ago, I, along with my cousin and other churchmates were chilling out at my cousin's house in Makati when the whole night was focused on putting someone on the hotseat. It started out as a joke yet (hell the Desire vs Destiny comment was a joke) but later that night, after large packs of Mr.Chips, Tortillios, Chippy and V-Cut, 3 liters of coke and watching "Hitch". It was quite serious.

Well, not that serious. But it wasn't a joke anymore.
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Sometimes, the need to love and the want to love can be two totally different things. Things which can easily be affected by a bunch of external factor.

Destiny is the need to love. Sometimes, people would say that person A is destined for person B. However, destiny, as someone had put it, only makes sure that you are at the right place, at the right time. The decision is still ultimately up to you. Destiny is the map that brings you to the crossroad.

Destiny, for some people can be a powerful factor. It brings you to the crossroads that, you feel (consciously or not) is where you should be. It deals with our purpose, our potential, our ability. Our choices.

Desire is the want to love. Passion. Desire is the fire that burns within us. The will to fight. Desire doesn't put us  at a favorable position, sometimes desire even brings us closer to failure. If we can compare it to destiny, desire has no insurance. Destiny, has insurance.

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So, is loving someone more on your desire or your destiny?

Let me ask you. Who won? The Pistons or the lakers =)
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Author's Note:

Yes! Walang pasok... much needed rest awaits!

Errr... yeah... anyway... It was raining and I found a draft of something I used to write in my blog. A line from a video game.

Final Fantasy IX

Dagger: "Why did you come with me?"

Zidane: "Hey, that's Ipsen's line."

Dagger: "Ipsen? Who's that?"

Zidane: "Ipsen is a character from a play, but he's a real-life adventurer.
I think the play is based on his adventures. It kind of goes like
this... Ipsen and his good friend Colin worked at a tavern in Treno.
One day Ipsen got a letter. The letter was so wet from rain that
most of the writing was illegible. The only part he could read said
'Come back home.' Nowadays, we have airships and stuff, but back
then, it was really hard to travel. He didn't know why he had to go
back, but he got some time off, gathered his things, and set out on
his journey home. He walked a thousand leagues through the Mist.
Sometimes he was attacked by vicious monsters, but he made it,
because his friend Colin was by his side. And then, after much time
on the road... He had to ask Colin something. 'Why did you come with
me?'"

Dagger: "And? What was Colin's answer?"

Zidane: "'Only because I wanted to go with you.'"

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Right now, I guess, with all the stress in school and other stuff. I want to just thank all the people who stood by me through the rain (Literally and otherwise). It's just been a while since I've thanked the people that mattered to me.

Right now, I'm putting down my hot choco and going out to get barraged by raindrops.

Cool, cleansing...

Sometimes I feel the alive the most this way

Linagnat ako ng 39~degrees Celsius? Ayos lang
Sore Throat kaya't di ako makainom ng Coke or malamig na beverages? Sige na nga.
Ubong gumigising sa buong bahay? Mapagtityagaan.

Pero ang sipon? No wayz!

Ayoko na binabara niya ang nostrils ko para makalanghap ako ng fresh air. Feeling ko kelangan ko ng consicous effort para huminga, Tapos, pag nagexhale ako sa ilong parang ang init init ng  pakiramdam. Tapos minsan nga, pag sumisingha ka tapos walang lumabas, nasusugatan mo pa ung ilong mo. Badtrip!!!

Naalala ko nung bata ako, pinapainom ako ni Mama ng Dimetapp, ung kulay purple na gamot na pangsipon na matamis at masarap (I.e. hindi lasang gamot) Siguro dahil dun napagtityagaan ko pa magka-sipon

Pero ngayon? No waaaaay.

Ayoko talagang nagkakasipon

Minsan, ang sarap talaga maglakad sa ulan.

Ung tipong nakapikit ka tapos iaangat mo ung ulo mo para saluhin ng mukha mo ang mga patak.

Nakakarefresh.

Parang... sinasama niya ang lahat ng problema mo sa pagbuhos niya sa iyo.

Daan daang alaala, dala ng mga patak ng ulan.

Daan daang luha, tumulo mula sa mata ng kalangitan.

Minsa'y hindi ko mapigilang isipin.

Na tuwing umiiyak ang langit

Ako'y madalas nakangiti.

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Secondhand Serenade
-Broken

In the moonlight
Your face it glows
Like a thousand diamonds
I suppose
And your hair flows like
The ocean breeze
Not a million fights
Could make me hate you
You’re invincible
Yeah, It’s true
It’s in your eyes
Where I find peace

Chorus:
Is it broken?
Can we work it out?
Let’s light up the town, scream out loud!
Is it broken?
Can we work it out?
I can see in your eyes
you’re ready to break
don’t look away.

So here we are now
in a place where
The sun blended
With the ocean thin.
So thin, we stand
Across from each other
Together we’ll wonder
If we will last these days
If I asked you to stay
Would you tell me
You would be mine?

And time
Is all I ask for
Time
I just need one more day
And time
You’ve been crying too long
Time
And your tears wrote this song
Stay

In the moonlight
Your face it glows

Poem was made by Jimmy, congrats on your engagement, really loved it and I thought it deserved it's own entry XD LOL FISH

In Between

Under shimmering stars Your name flickers in between
Etched in the heavens above And in everything I see
The hours soon pass by Not a moment gone in vain
A tantalizing memory

A seemingly endless dream Oh how I long for your love
Alone I lie here again Gazing upon the pale full moon
With but only you in my thoughts Lost in the plane of illusions

The silhouettes, with one another, devotedly dance
Enveloped in each other's vermillion flame
As if mocking me with their presence Amidst the night's zephyr

Again, I find myself longing for your warmth
Wishing to be with your forever
Bearing an eternal promise of hope
The letters of your name
Shall never be erased
For under these shimmering stars
They flicker in between
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This song, I just like

Secondhand Serenade
- I hate this song

Speak with your tongue tied,
I know that you’re tired
But I just want to know,
Where you want to go,
I may be sad, But I’m not weak,
This situation is bleak
And your puffy eyes never lie,
Your tears come from inside.

Chorus:
Until Sunday I’ll be waiting for an answer
I guess that yesturday’s not good enough for you,
You know that I hate this song,
You know that I hate this song
Because it was written for you

Drown your fears with me
I’m feeling real sorry
Your glossy eyes don’t need
The sadness they have seen
But you’re way too deep to swim
Back up again
But somehow I can’t find
The moment you said goodbye

Chorus

This is becoming a problem I’m hurting it’s unfair
But somehow your words,
The way that I heard are haunting me,
You’re under my skin
You’re breaking in,
And the tasteless fights that filled our nights
Are starting to cave in,
You’re under my skin
You’re breaking in
And if Sundays what it takes to prove
I have nothing else to lose

It only takes your eyes to make me smile.
Staring deep into your soul I find peace.
Deep in your eyes are visions only I can see
Deep in your eyes are memories of what used to be

It only takes your eyes to make me cry
Whether you look at me, or somewhere else
If you're shedding tears or not.
Deep in your eyes, are memories of what is

It only takes your touch to make me feel warm
When I lock my hands with yours
Or if I hold you captive to my embrace
I close my eyes and feel your breath fall to my skin

It only takes your voice to make me feel happy
It only takes your thoughts to make me feel special
It only takes your actions to make me feel loved
In the end I realize.

All it ever took, was you...

Ayun, so natuwa ako sa entry ni mimah, gagawa rin ako.  ^_^

Rules
1. Write something for 15 different people.

2. You CANNOT say who they are.

3. If someone asks you which one is about them, YOU ARE NOT TO TELL.

#1. Salamat, kahit minsan koopal ka, anjan ka parin. At alam kong lahat ng bagay ay maaayos din. Alam kong sinundan mo lang puso mo pero wag mo nang uulitin ha? Todas ka kapag inulit mo hehehe

#2. Bago lang tayong prends pero ang close na natin. Salamat talaga ^_^ Nakakatuwa ang kalikutan natin pag magkasama tayo at malakas ang pakiramdam ko talaga na marami pa tayong pagsasamahan Mula sa pangungulit sa LRT hanggang sa prenster youtubeing. Salamat sa chance por dis prenship to happen at alam mo palagi na andito ako por u. Uki?

#3.  Ikaw ito. You've been my bestfriend, my sister, my labz and much much more. Need I say more? Pag nagkamali ka pa dito sasapatusin na kita hehehe. Dahil you've been so very good to me, bibigyan kita ng  

#4. Hindi ka tumataba, Cuteiful ka pa rin at kung tumaba ka man, Ako ang huhusga. Miss na talaga kita hehehe <3

#5 I know busy ka at minsan medyo natatawa ka nalang sa pinaka common na bagay na pinaguusapan natin pero salamat talaga =) Pinagtiyagaan mo ang isang timang na tulad ko hehe. 'nga pala penge Little Mermaid OST

#6 One day, you'll find what you're looking for and I'd like to tell you that when you do. I'll be among those people who you'll see still standing by your side ready to come to your aid when you need it and basically, be there no matter what, like all (true) friends are =)

#7 Kahit hindi tayo kasing dalas tumambay tulad ng dati, hindi pa rin nagbabago ung fact na ikaw ang isa sa mga pinaka malapit kong tropa. Sobrang lupit mo na handa kitang suportahan kung gagawa ka ng libro punong puno ng mga kasabihan tungkol sa buhay.

#8 Dalhan mo akong pasalubong ha? hehehehe. Just remember, sometimes the way he is is just what makes him love you ;)

#9 You are the pimpest of all the pimps I know, you also have the biggest failure rate but it's ok, andito kami for you (and the next time you fail) until you finally find the right one and not screw up XD =p

#10 It's no surprise to me that lots of people trust you with a lot of things. That's why I know that I can trust you with what I feel even though I don't get a chance to talk to you that much, know that ever since we started to grow closer, I've always treasured everything we've been through and I know we'll still go through more stuff and I'm glad I'll be sharing it with a friend like you. Salamat =)

#11 Get.A.Life. I don't even know why you wonder about why most of us are annoyed by you. Text palang nakakairita na, no-show ka naman palagi. May nalalaman ka pang "workout" para bugbugin ako. Noob

#12 One day, I'd like to go play soccer again. Practice naman tayo minsan oh? hehhe. Nakakatuwa pa rin malaman na kahit hindi tayo madalas magusap compared to other friends, close pa rin tayo. Quality of quantity nga naman diba dude? hehe. Kasama na dun ung Quality of our looks ;)

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Hanggang jan nalang, wala na akong maisip at the moment eh hehehe =)

"Promises are meant to be broken."
-I hate this quote a lot. I don't believe it's true. I've just started to ponder on the fact why many people seem to believe this.

Before anything else, let me just say that we don't (usually) purposely break them. They just get broken often due to unfortunate circumstances. Sometimes they really have to be broken for the good of all people involved, but still, I believe they aren't meant to be broken.

Why? Think about it, Why do we make promises in the first place? Sometimes our human selves feel the strongest sense of emotion that we have the urge to make a commitment to the person and to ourselves right? We promise because at that point, we believe that we can make it happen.

Commitment, no matter how big or small it is, is still important. I'm not saying "never break any promises" After all, tao lang din naman tayo. Instead, I'm calling out for us to understand why we make promises in the first place.

And just as we understand why we make them, then we can understand why they are broken at times. I believe how we make our promises is also a key factor in how often they get broken. But that should be common knowledge right?

I also think we should know the fine line between romantic notions and actual commitments. I mean, c'mon, if a guy promises to bring you the sun, moon and stars, you don't really expect him to do it right? However, I can see that there's always a middle area between those two parts like promises of "I'll be there for you always," or "I'll die for you" so I guess proper discretion and critical thinking is needed for us as well.

Sometimes our emotions are just too easily hijacked (myself included). So I really don't blame people if promises are broken, because, they really are broken often.

They're just not meant to be that way.

God promised that he would never leave us nor forsake us. Is that meant to be broken as well?

Hai, favorite female artist ko talaga

http://james2537.multiply.com/music/item/25

So here goes
You're leavin'
You'll be workin' far from home
And I'll be left here on my own

We both know you have to go
But I wish there was a way
You could feel my love each day

Ref:
(But/cause though)
I've nothing else to give you
To remember me by
Just a song I made in my heart
So you'll know though we're apart

Chorus:
I wish you love
la la la n-ya n-ya
I wish you love
la la la n-ya n-ya

You hold my heart with this song
So when you miss me
Just sing along

I'll yearn for you always
Though I know it won't be long
And you'll be back where you belong
Until that day if you should miss me
Play this song and hear me sing
My love is never far away

Repeat Refrain

Repeat Chorus

I wish you love
la la la n-ya n-ya
I wish you love
la la la n-ya n-ya
I wish you love

I wish you love...